Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Heart to Heart

I have been neglecting my blog as of late. For the past few months, there has only been a random post here, a brief snippet there. It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down and written a good long heartfelt post.
I think that it’s about time I did just that.
We’ve all heard that life is full of ups and downs, circumstantially and emotionally, and most of us have experienced it first hand. One day you’re laughing and loving life, and the next you wonder why you’re even here. Some compare these emotional swings to a roller coaster. You may remember that I very much dislike roller coasters.
My life has been on a long, low downswing for the past few months. I’ve been depressed. Writing has become difficult; putting my thoughts into words is almost impossible. My mind feels like constant chaos, and the confusion and negativity makes it difficult to hear God. Some days, I don’t even want to hear Him. I’d rather wallow in my misery.
Change is elusive. Resolutions slip through my fingers like sand, and I am weighed down with the grief of failure. So I gave up. My blog, my stories, my speeches, my Bible... I stopped investing in those things and sat around watching movies and reading novels and wondering what my purpose was in life.
Long story short, God has been showing me through various people in my life that I need to be content living at home and serving God in my everyday life. Nothing is too small for Him to use for His glory.
All that being said... I’m sorry. I know that I have no formal obligation to this blog. I don’t have to post a certain number of times per month, or update my profile picture weekly. But at this point in my life, my blog is my ministry, and it’s not right for me to neglect what God has given me.
So if God lays something on my heart, I’m going to post it – and hopefully try to live by it as well. If something big happens in my life and I want to share it with you, I’ll post it. I’m tired of being a lazy, lukewarm, woe-is-me believer. I want to live with passion and meaning and fall deeper in love with Jesus every day. Yes, I will fail – failure is guaranteed in this life. But I also know that there is a great reward for those who persevere.

On another note, happy New Year, everyone! God bless 2014. :)

“God is calling you to a passionate love relationship with Himself, because the answer to religious complacency isn’t working harder at a list of do’s and don’ts. It’s falling in love with God.” -Francis Chan



  1. God bless you, Riah. Your blog is a huge blessing to me, and the story of your family and your brother really influenced me in so many ways.

    This past Sunday, our pastor's sermon was on the verse in 1 Corinthians about faith, hope, and love. When talking about hope, he said something that I thought was interesting....that spiritual depression is normal in the Christian life. It comes. That's just it. But then he shared from Ps. 42 (a classic psalm!) the verse where it says,
    "Why are you cast down, O my soul?
    And why are you disquieted within me?
    Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him
    For the help of His countenance."

    The psalmist wasn't ready to praise God just then, but he promised he WOULD. Even when it doesn't feel like it, if we will just praise Him no matter what, he turns that praise into joy and a blessing for us.....far greater than we ever expected.

    Sorry that was so long!! I just feel close to you even though you don't know me at all!

    Keep shining and striving for Him!


  2. Thank you for the encouragement, Lisa. It brings me joy to know that my simple writing blesses others. :)

    God bless,