In a word, I had grown lazy.
One night, God convicted me of this. I suddenly realized that for the past couple of weeks, I hadn’t been living for anyone but myself. Which, I had long since learned, was a worthless thing to live for. I saw how far I had been drifting, and I asked God to forgive me.
Then I asked Him for a chapter. A verse. Something that would be perfect for where I was at in that moment, that would challenge and convict me. I opened my Bible, and my eyes fell on Psalm 101.
And I started crying.
I will sing of lovingkindness and justice,
To You, O Lord, I will sing praises.
I will give heed to the blameless way.
When will You come to me?
I will walk within my house in the integrity of my heart.
I will set no worthless thing before my eyes;
I hate the work of those who fall away;
It shall not fasten its grip on me.
A perverse heart shall depart from me;
I will know no evil.
Whoever secretly slanders his neighbor, him I will destroy;
No one who has a haughty look and an arrogant heart will I endure.
My eyes shall be upon the faithful of the land,
That they may dwell with me;
He who walks in a blameless way is the one who will minister to me.
He who practices deceit shall not dwell within my house;
He who speaks falsehood shall not maintain his position before me.
Every morning I will destroy all the wicked of the land,
So as to cut off from the city of the Lord all those who do iniquity.
Stay strong, followers and lovers of Christ. Read the Word, fellowship with your Maker, revel in His love, grace, and forgiveness. Believe and be changed. Nothing else in this life is worth it.